Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Self-Medicating

The grieving process is never easy. I feel like an unstable schizo going from really sad and crying to completely being numb and void of the whole situation. Like...is this all really happening? DID this really happen? My grandmother passed away peacefully Saturday morning and right when you think you don't have anymore tears left, the flood gates open up again! After going to the hospital for the last time, I felt like I could have slept for a whole week straight. My mom and I were on our way home and stopped for lunch although neither one of us wanted food....however we both demanded a glass of anything with alcohol after the many calls to the funeral director and figuring out a lot of the details for later. The apple doesn't fall far from the tree.


We headed over to Septemberfest since we were both exhausted and needed to ease our minds a little bit. For those of you who aren't familiar, it's a HUGE event where a bunch of local crafters and businesses get together and set up shop. Of course the majority are insanely overpriced, however I was SO very grateful to run into this one shop that sells essential oils and all natural, homemade soaps. Lavender everything bring it on! It's of course known to calm you down and de-stress. Just what I needed. I also bought some essential oils that work wonders for said stress and migraines.


 After that I headed to Half Priced Books with my sis. Because obviously. I was tired of being in tune with real life and decided that I needed to get lost in some new books. They were also having an extra 20% off sale so I got a stack of lovely books for $20. Um yes?


 My grandmother was a huge reader too so I felt like it was completely appropriate to indulge in some new reads. Running along the lake of course is another primo way for me to de-stress and zen out for awhile. Being around family is great and everything, but if you're anything like me, you need to just be alone with your thoughts sometimes.


I wanted to also say that all of you who left emails and comments when I broke the news last week about my grandmother are simply wonderful human beings. I mean just look at yourself, you're awesome and I love you all *BIG GROUP HUG*.

Then you also have the furbabies snuggling and bugging you since they always have a sixth sense for when their humans aren't feeling 100%. Apollo would just be there like, "hey mom, I'm here...for pets...well and for you too."


I'm looking forward to getting back into my normal daily routine and blogging regularly. And for those of you who have XM Radio and just wait around until a free promotion rolls around, that time is now!! #thesmallthings.


I hope your day is all rainbows and sunshine everyone!!! xoxo



13 comments:

  1. Glad you're hanging in there:) I think reading and running and lavender sound heavenly and relaxing:)

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  2. I am so sorry for your loss. I know that nothing to anyone can say or do will fill the hole in your heart. Just trust that time heals all wounds and I'm sure she's in a better place. I think reading and working out are the best ways to keep your mind occupied. Hang in there girl!

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  3. oh my gosh you got some great books girly.
    i am sorry once again for your grandmother - i know this doesnt make anyone feel better but my grandmother is literally in the hospital as we speak. i found out after i got back from my weekend away and i am a mess. there is nothing i can do but wait for updates from my family.

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  4. Oh girl, I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother. That is always the worst feeling in the world. I hope you start to feel better soon and just know she's looking down on you.

    <3, Pamela
    sequinsandseabreezes.blogspot.com

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  5. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. It's good, though, that you're finding ways to deal with it.

    I'm reading Where'd You Go, Bernadette right now and it is SO good...definitely one to escape in. And Downtown Owl is my favorite Chuck Klosterman book. Another one you'll get lost in.

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  6. Glad you were able to spend some time with your Mom and drink away the pain for a little bit. So jealous you have a half priced books close to you. Pets always know when we are hurting and give us extra snuggles. Glad you were able to distract yourself even for just a few moments.

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  7. sorry to hear about your grams. it never gets easy; you just learn to move on.

    septemberfest sounds like our One of a Kind show (OOAK) and while i love the vendors, i don't like their prices but it's always fun to look/browse.

    hugs xoxoxoxox

    -kathy
    Vodka and Soda

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  8. Sorry again to hear about your grandmother. I know the process is a long one to feeling completely normal again without being on the verge of a breakdown all the time.

    On a lighter note, you got an awesome stack of books there for $20!! I need to find a place like that! And I have been curious about a lot of the essential oils lately. I used to use a few a long time ago and they really seem to be the thing these days.

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  9. Keep you head up! I'm rooting for you. I know this must be a super difficult time. It's amazing getting lost in books. Love those EOs too!

    ~Ashley @ A Cute Angle
    acutelifestyle.blogspot.com

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  10. So sorry to hear about your grandmother :( Sending hugs your way.

    I don't think I'll ever get over how cute your cat is.

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  11. Last fall I wrote a post on the grieving process and "science" would have us believe to be. If you ever want to read it: http://www.voyageofthemeemee.com/2013/11/the-5-stages-of-grief-fact-or-fiction.html
    I've never lost a grandmother. My mom's mom passed before I was born... my dad's mom is still here. I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through but I'm here for you if you ever need to talk!

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  12. I am so sorry dear. I'm glad that you've been taking care of yourself. You got this!

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  13. I always require "me time," whether I'm going through a difficult time or not. Taking a timeout to destress is necessary! Septemberfest, a few drinks, and new books sound like great stress relievers!

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